and was anything worth it? a small being in a large sea. Yes, i have been a distant soul on a long distance journey, with not many seeing me… looking for my life to happen, wanting more, working for more, and now it seems, the more i do, the less I am, only to accrue experiences of less than what i want, reflecting that less than what Am. My age belies a certain small wisdom, yet it is a lie of my heart’s longing, as a youngster If and when the Event happens, i may open to more of the fullness of who I Am. Until then I will swim my way through and maintain somewhat of a surface presence.