Where did my life go?

and was anything worth it? me on islanda small being in a large sea.        Yes, i have been a distant soul on a long distance journey, with not many seeing me…                 looking for my life to happen, wanting more, working for more, and now it seems, the more i do, the less I am,                                      only to accrue experiences of less than what i want, reflecting that  less than what  Am.                  My age belies a certain small wisdom,   yet it is a lie of my heart’s longing, as a youngster         If and when the Event happens, i may open to more of the fullness of who I Am.          Until then I will swim my way through and maintain somewhat of a surface presence.